San Francisco Here we come!

    Nick's cancerous tumors from his abdomen and upper body were recently removed during surgery. The issue that I am still having is that he has remaining tumors left in his legs and thigh area. I spoke to Candice regarding his treatment and we wanted second opinions and other ideas on how to effectively knock out cancer. I just did not feel the chemotherapy was doing as good as job as they had hoped. We have decided to try a radiation therapy in San Francisco the idea is to get in there and attack the rest of the tumors. Wish us luck as we go on another roller coaster ride. A ride of our lifetime as we try and save this young man's life. I have been so caught up with the work and all of the regular stresses in life and have not been able to effectively research these treatments to my fullest. Candice is overwhelmed although she seems to be getting a lot of support from her job and her co-workers it's still proven to be
very stressful at times for her as well.

      As time goes on and more accessing his port I feel like he's been chosen to be some sort of  damn experiment. This medical mystery called cancer has affected our day to day lives tremendously. I could not even begin to explain the BS we go through daily.I am sure there is a cure out there. I just know that there is one. I just pray we fall into the hands of a great society/team of medical staff that will see greatness in our son and our lives. I hope they will take mercy on souls and help heal our pain. I cannot take this anymore. I am so tired of all the hurt and pain cancer causes.  You know and I know that everyone speasks about kids cannot die before the parents. Truthfully, I have always been a strong believer in that statement. This is all a bad dream I just want to wake up and be stable in my job with our family in happy places in life learning all day everyday. Why can't we just assume a normal position in life and stop taking blow after blow?! Please God give us a way out of this storm we are headed into.

Do you see a sick child? because the only time I see our son actually sick is when he throwing up from all the toxic poison from chemotherapy.

Nick's tumor operation

    Nicholas has been so very blessed to be surrounded with such patience and professionalism at his new Hospital. We are very grateful to know the staff at the new facilities. We have been in such a wreck since my last blog and believe me when I say we have been through it all, we have been through it all at least twice.

   Nicholas has recently had his tumors removed from his abdomen and he's recovering at this time. He's very itchy and scratchy from the medicines and is having a hard time dealing with all his tubing. I am pleased to know that when I got to the hospital he had so much energy to look me in the eyes to say I love you. I was also able to shoot him some words of wisdom such as do what they tell you to do and listen to your nurses always. He was very responsive to this. He nearly lost a liter of blood during the surgery so we are happy and blessed to have all the blood donors that are out there.

   Candice and I have raised a respectable, loving and fine young man and we are looking forward to seeing him raise his own children and loving up his own family. Nick is the type of young man that is destined to succeed and bless people with his wisdom and courage. He laughed and smiled his whole way into the surgery room the other day. He had no fear and for the first time in my life I knew Candice and I had raised him to think positively and to not have that deep fear inside his body.

There are so many things I wish to say but cannot find the words. Most important of them all, our son is on his way to recovery and has one more round of Chemotherapy on our list of things to do. It will be coming to a slow crawl soon and hopefully he will be back in school shortly. I know that is what he misses most of all. This is what makes a boy feel like a boy and thrive. God bless all of our family supporters! We have been touched by many different kinds of people and some were to be expected and some were just a very nice surprise in our process. Thank you all. :)